Ready for a new year

2010 has been a very rough year in my life. We have been struggling with infertility, family feuding, miscarriage, finances, you name it. You all know that I miscarried at 5 weeks on August 28th. Well, unexpectedly I got a positive pregnancy test over the weekend. I went in for some blood tests on Monday and the results were not good. My HCG was ok at 408 but my progesterone was only 3.5. I went on progesterone supplements starting Tuesday evening knowing that it probably wouldn't change anything, but also knowing that I have to try. I got my second set of blood results today and my hcg has dropped to 284. I am going to get the Rhogam (RH factor) shot tomorrow since I have B- blood. Then the waiting game begins. I will get blood drawn every week until it gets back down to zero. Then Travis and I will have a consult with Dr. Jewell to see where we are at and what the next step in the plan is.

While this is extremely hard for both of us, I am determined to look forward. Travis and I will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary in Florida, basically repeating our honeymoon. It will be nice to relax, watch a great football game, visit the House of Mouse again, maybe visit the World of Harry Potter, and see one of my best girls for a few days.

I am just hoping that as this year draws to an end and a new one begins, the ginormous black rain cloud that has been following us for the year finally floats away. It will be great to look forward to new things and the conflicts of the past will run their courses.

Wordless Wednesday

wordless Wednesday

Wordless Wednesday

Wordless Wednesday

Tears in Heaven

One perfect week. That is what Travis and I had last week. From 8/20-8/27 we were the 2 happiest people on the earth. We were pregnant! After 15 months and 2 cycles of Clomid, our dreams were coming true. Then the world crashed down around us. I lost the baby. I would have been 5 weeks pregnant. For whatever reason, we were not meant to have this child. Emotionally, we are both doing ok. Better than ok. Trav stayed home with me on Saturday and Sunday. After a little bit of encouragement from one of my BFFs, we went to a friend's birthday party on Saturday. It really helped. I was able to talk and receive encouragement from some of my best girls. Travis and I are determined to remain positive. We know that I can get pregnant and now just need to figure out the rest. We may be looking at my progesterone levels (they never rose with the pregnancy) when I get to talk to my doctor. Right now I am waiting on a call from the office about my second blood draw and my blood type. If I am B- like I think I am, I will have to get an RH shot. (I heard it stings like hell!!!)

I want to thank all the girls (and some of the guys) that I talked to on Saturday! You really raised both Travis and my spirits and gave us hope. We are not giving up yet!

Goal

After talking to Rachel last night, I realized that I needed to give myself a greater goal to motivate my butt to get off the couch. I may be out of my mind, but I just signed up for my first 5K! I am going to run in the Jingle Bell 5K to benefit the Arthritis foundation. The race is on 11/21. The best part... I convinced Travis to run it with me!!!! If any of you runners out there would like to join, our team is Team Wunderlich (I know, not very creative.) If you would like to donate to the Arthritis foundation, here is a link to my page
http://jinglebellrunstl.kintera.org/kwunderlich
Here is a link to the team page
http://jinglebellrunstl.kintera.org/wunderlich

Can I just say that I am a little terrified. Never imagined that I would be signing up to run in any race. I am more of a fun walk person!!