Seriously

I can't believe that I have to put this, but if you read something on my blog (which is public at this point) that does not mention any names, and you take offense to it, then YOU must feel that it applies to you or someone you know. I have made an effort in the past few months the generalize my vents/rants. I know that this does not apply to my regular blog readers/friends, but due to new situations, I have to put this disclaimer! I really don't want to have to have a private blog, but it is coming to that!!! Sheesh!

running through my mind; also known as venting

This is not the type of post I usually do but I have a lot running through my mind right now! First of all, I need to ask: When did it become ok for adults to use FB as a place to publically fight with your own family members? When did it become ok to actually put other people down on FB? For once a fight with in my family does not involve me directly but I am involved none the less. I used to get sucked in to the drama but then I realized that I am an adult. I am not saying that I have never vented on FB, most people do, but usually it is a generic "this sucks or I am so pissed" If I have ever directly posted something in the last year about someone then I apologize because it is so immature. It really makes me want to leave FB!

Do you all know how heartbreaking it is to watch a pregnant woman smoke! I used to smoke and would do the typical, "it's my body! I am going to die someday anyway" comments. Other adults smoking do not usually bother me but seeing a pregnant woman smoke just tears me up! It's no longer just her body she is hurting! Ugh! Argh! Very frustrating!

These are my two big vents, so thanks for listening! Sometimes it's nice to get it all out without going into names and details!

If I put it on my blog maybe it will motivate me!

So I have decided that I have to let myself go! Go back to the shape I used to be in, that is. I have started run/walking. I used to run 1-3 miles every day in college. Now I can't even make it halfway down the street. I'm not training for any marathon, although I really admire those of you that are (Rachel, Jamie, and Kori!) Maybe I will feel like I can do that when I am seeing a little more progress. Instead, I am feeling like I need a knee replacement and my calves are being ripped from my legs. I have also started yoga again. I also have another agenda than just looking good in my size 8 jeans that I am determined to get back from my BF! Trav and I have been struggling to get pregnant and I know getting healthy can only help. I quit smoking in January and am now determined to lose at least 20 pounds. Plus it will help if I have something else to focus on and (hopefully) have something to celebrate each month (weight loss!) Pregnancy has become my focus and it is a little upsetting. Things will work out and I know that but for now I am going to focus a little more on myself! I am not brave enough to post my starting weight or measurements but if it is okay with all of you in blog land, I will post any changes (good or bad). I am however putting up these awful pictures of me from our honeymoon hoping that will be enough to motivate me! Encouragement is always welcome! Thank you all in advance for your support!



Yes, I am trying to suck in the bubble gut in the swimsuit pics!