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My summer reading list

You may remember that I posted a list of books that I want to read this summer here. (kathyandtravis.blogspot.com/2010/03/inadequate.html. I am feeling a little lazy because, so far,I have only read 1 book off of the list. I read "The Road" by Cormac McCarthy. It was one of the weirdest books I think I have read. Very depressing and it really freaked me out. However, I am glad that I read it. I also read the book, "The Killer Angels" by Michael Shaara. The movie "Gettysburg" is based off of the book. If you like history, it is amazing! It, however, is not on the list of books I made for myself. I received "The Shining" as a birthday present and started it last night. My goal is at least 1 book a week but trying for 2 a week.

Relief

This morning was the HSG and I am very grateful that it is over. It was an uncomfortable kind of pain. Not unbearable, but not pleasant. When the balloon was inflated, it downright hurt! I am still having some cramps and twinges, much like a period cramp but more isolated in one spot. Nothing I can't handle! While I couldn't tell a thing on the radiology screen, Dr. Jewell has assured me that everything was normal! Instant weight was lifted! This month we will just watch this cycle (maybe I will fall into the % that gets pregnant!) If I still don't follow a normal 28 day cycle, then I will have another appointment with him. Because my cycles have been longer than 32 days the concern is that I may not be ovulating. This could be because of stress and not necessarily a medical problem. If I am not ovulating then Clomid may be able to help. while there are still a lot of questions in my mind, I am relieved to hear that there are no cysts, polyps, or blockages! Now I can focus on enjoying my birthday weekend!!!!

Now Starring: Taylor Lynn

This is my friend Steph's gorgeous daughter Taylor. She serves as my baby model while I practice with my new camera. Steph gets free pics and Tay gets a ton of attention!

Honesty

So Travis and I have reached the 12 month mark of trying to start our family. (Yes we started trying before the wedding for those of you adding up the months) We are starting the preliminary testing to rule out any problems. Travis has been tested and is normal (according to the test results anyway!) Now it is my turn. I am having a HSG (Hysterosalpingography) in the morning. This is a dye test to check the shape of the uterine cavity and make sure there are no blockages through the fallopian tubes. It is "supposedly" a quick procedure and any pain is described as period like cramps. Still, I am scared out of my mind. I think I am scared to find out the results. I never thought I would have to face fertility issues. I have always wanted kids and assumed that it would be pretty easy. I am the first of my close group of friends that has struggled to get pregnant. I have friends that have different types of pregnancy related issues, but most have been able to get pregnant right away. The hardest parts these last 12 months have been answering "No, but we are trying" when someone asked if we were pregnant, and then hearing "you are thinking about it too much, just stop trying" when they here that we aren't preggers.
Now I know that there still might not be an issue and that some people just take longer to conceive. I have read so many Internet articles and have talked to friends, coworkers, etc. I also know that there might not be any reason at all and that is the scariest part. For some people, it just doesn't happen. These are realities that I may have to face. I am trying to stay optimistic and believe that there is nothing wrong. Is it wrong that I am clinging to the article I read that says that pregnancy rates increase slightly in the cycle an HSG is performed. It is probably bunk but makes me happy to think about it!
If you have a spare thought anytime , say a little prayer that everything is normal with the test result! I could really use it!