The happiest day of my life

I love remembering this day. 1 year ago today I was a nervous wreck, yet strangely calm as I prepared for my wedding! It was a perfect day with perfect weather!

I love this man!

One year ago today was the happiest day of my life (so far)! I married my best friend, my partner, my soul mate! I don't know what I would do without him. He is my everything. We have had an up and down year for us and we are emerging stronger than ever! I love you baby!

Why my armpits hurt!

Somebody (I won't name names but you know who your are) decided that a new challenge for us gals should be the 100 push up challenge. Umm.... I HATE push ups. In fact I have to do "girl" push ups to be able to do even 1. It effing sucks. I did the initial test and could do 4. That's it. 4 girl push ups. I suck. I did day 1. Then I died. For real, my arms hurt but I was feeling good because it was the first form of exercise that I had done in about 3 weeks. Last night I did day 2. Then I really died. My armpits hurt! That is where I feel it the most. My chest aches, my arms are sore, but my armpits really hurt. It probably means that I am doing something wrong but at least I am doing something! This is one challenge that I am excited to see the end results! I am really hoping that I will be able to see a bug difference in my arms (which are about as strong as spaghetti!) Maybe I will even look like this while doing my push ups....one day


Day 3 is tonight. Hopefully I live because we leave for Florida tomorrow!

10 years ago

I had just graduated high school! I was just starting college! I was 18!






A few weeks ago I had my 10 year high school reunion. I can't believe that it has been 10 years since I graduated. For a long time I thought that High school held my best years. I had so much fun! I had a fantastic group of friends and we had a lot of fun. Realizing that it has been 10 years since that amazing time made me reflect a little on what has happened since high school. I went to 3 different colleges. I graduated with my B.A. in Psychology with a minor in Criminology and Criminal Justice from UMSl. I got married and then divorced a year later. I met an amazing man (even though it took me a few years to see it) and got married again. I have had struggles and some of the most amazing times. Some of us have had kiddos, and some of us are stuggling with that. One of us has lives in the city and one of us has a motorcycle. We have our own lives that are somehow entertwined with each others. I know that I can not talk to any of these people for weeks and then send out one text and get what ever response I need. I have travelled and vegged out. I have danced and laughed and cried and screamed. Through out it all, I still have that amazing group of friends that I did in High School. We have grown and changed together. Here is to another 10 years of great memories!

Ready for a new year

2010 has been a very rough year in my life. We have been struggling with infertility, family feuding, miscarriage, finances, you name it. You all know that I miscarried at 5 weeks on August 28th. Well, unexpectedly I got a positive pregnancy test over the weekend. I went in for some blood tests on Monday and the results were not good. My HCG was ok at 408 but my progesterone was only 3.5. I went on progesterone supplements starting Tuesday evening knowing that it probably wouldn't change anything, but also knowing that I have to try. I got my second set of blood results today and my hcg has dropped to 284. I am going to get the Rhogam (RH factor) shot tomorrow since I have B- blood. Then the waiting game begins. I will get blood drawn every week until it gets back down to zero. Then Travis and I will have a consult with Dr. Jewell to see where we are at and what the next step in the plan is.

While this is extremely hard for both of us, I am determined to look forward. Travis and I will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary in Florida, basically repeating our honeymoon. It will be nice to relax, watch a great football game, visit the House of Mouse again, maybe visit the World of Harry Potter, and see one of my best girls for a few days.

I am just hoping that as this year draws to an end and a new one begins, the ginormous black rain cloud that has been following us for the year finally floats away. It will be great to look forward to new things and the conflicts of the past will run their courses.